Soulmates

**This entry was transcribed from my handwritten journal, dated from December 11th, 2016.
I thought it would provide interesting contrast to how things have turned out now. Enjoy.

There are days when Apache is so perfect, that I imagine that she must be my soul mate. That no person or thing could complete my life more than she does.

They say when you find your heart horse, you'll know. 

And I would swear, that I knew it from the moment I saw her.

Which, ironically, is more than I can say about any man that's ever been in my life. I've never looked at one of them and decided "yup, that's the one."

Maybe that's part of the problem. 

Apache isn't perfect. But we know how to communicate. I've learned her language. And she's learned mine. We respect each other. 

I trust her. She trusts me too.

Trust is a hard one for me. I find her easier to trust than I find most people.

Even though she's an 1000 pound animal with the easy capacity of injuring or even killing me. But I'd rather be injured by her than get my heart broken by anyone else. 

When looking for a soulmate, you want someone who brings out the best in you. 

Someone who makes you happy.

Someone you know loves you. As much as you love them. 

And for now, Apache can be my soulmate. Until someone else steps in.